"Yesterday Left My Head Kicked In...."

No, the time does not lie. I'm awake. Yup, me. The one who is most definitely not a morning person, is up before any sensible person should be. Worst of it is, I've been awake even longer than I've been up. It was a bit of a rough night. Too much on my mind. Yesterday, I was told that my workplace needed to make some cutbacks so I was let go. I'll stay two more weeks in order to hopefully find other work before I'm officially unemployed, and then I'll be done.

What are the odds of this happening to me twice in less than 6 months? Less than 4 months, really. Even though, in both instances, it has been through no fault of my own, I still feel like a bit of a failure. I could use some extra prayer right now. My heart - the part of me that knows that God is a good God, that this is no surprise to Him, and that He already has something else in His plan for me - is having a hard time convincing my brain - the part of me that knows how many bills are due every month, that money still does not grow on trees, and that beggars can't be choosers - that it's all going to be OK. I've started making inquiries about job openings but I can't bear the thought of going back to the type of work that makes me hate my life. I have dreams that I want to pursue and I don't want to leave them behind. Not yet, anyway.

Please pray....