"Hello, good mornin', how ya been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in.
I never, never thought
That I would fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad...."
(Switchfoot)
Yesterday, I let go of something - someone - I hold dear. The past couple of weeks, my heart hadn't been at peace concerning my relationship with N. I keep being drawn back to the calling that the Lord has placed on my life...and I knew N. didn't share the same calling. So, last night, we made the choice. As they say, "breaking up is hard to do." What an understatement! It SUCKS! I can't pinpoint the last time I cried so hard I ached. In my heart, I know this was right. But, right now, I can't help second-guessing myself. I can't help wondering if I "heard" the Lord right, if I made this decision too hastily, if I will ever fully "get over" this. My relationship with N. was truly a blessing and his gracious acceptance of what I had to say last night overwhelmed me. (Why couldn't he have been a jerk about it?! It would have made things so much easier! Smile....)
Lord, we are broken and deeply in need of Your healing. Please use this time to continue to shape us into the vessels You can use. Thank You for N. and the time we've shared together. Please encourage our hearts....
1 comment:
I don't know if you remember it, but a line from an old BJ Thomas song comes to mind. "He's got it all in control. He's got it all in control. He put that reassurance, way down in my soul. God's got it all in control."
Love you, Sis. The Lord will show you both what is right. In the meantime, we're keep you both in prayer.
See you soon!!!!!!!!!!!!
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