More Than Enough

I debated whether to go to church this morning. I was running late and, being the stickler that I am when it comes to promptness, I hated the idea of walking in after the service had already started. But, I knew I needed to be there this morning, so I went.

After worship was over, I realized why I needed to go. We sang songs about finding our completeness in Christ and His being enough. "More than all I want, more than all I need. You are more than enough for me...." Lately, there are a lot of things I've been wanting: a house, a dog, a husband. I feel stuck where I am right now. At the same time I am longing for a home and a family of my own, I also want to be involved in ministry, particularly missions. Being a recent college graduate with my share of student loans, the likelihood of pursuing an overseas mission trip right now seems slim at best. Why does everything in life have to depend on money?! In my heart I know that God is greater than my financial needs and that He can accomplish the calling(s) he has placed on my life regardless of how much it may cost. Still, I feel trapped.

Tomorrow I'm hoping to turn in a resume for a job at my alma mater. Even though I'm excited to be working in such a great place (and get out of the mess I've been working in!), it's still not the sort of ministry that I've studied and longed for. I can't help but feel a bit jealous of some of my friends who can take a few months here and there to pursue ministry without hardly a thought about the financial aspect. In spite of the life I've been blessed with up to now, I can't help but wonder, "Why not me, God?"

Well, it's time to try writing a killer cover letter for my job application. To all who may read this, I ask that you please pray for me for God's direction and a greater sense of what it means to trust Him.